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February 11, 2010 on 11:13 pm | In Life | Comments Off on Untitled

Poet I have met a man his name is Johney. He lives and works in North Carolina. I think you would like him and approve of him. He is a good guy, a scooter tramp from the old school, much like yourself. He thinks the world of me, Charli Rose and Macina Lyn as well and has all of our best interests at heart. This isn’t something that I’d ever thought I’d have to do in my lifetime. There wasn’t supposed to be anyone else in this world for me, it was always only you and you alone my love. But life isn’t made to be spent alone and I’m tired of being alone. I’m lucky in that I have a large family and a lot of friends that are there for me, but it just isn’t the same as having some one to share your love and life with.

I miss you so very much. Every day is a living hell without you. If it wasn’t for our two daughters that you left behind I would have taken my life that night, in order to go along with you on the next journey that we are all suppossed to go on after this life time here on earth. We now have a grand daughter, she was born on December 23, 2009. Her name is Feori Nichole Dunn, a real beauty, you would just adore her. I can see you holding her, tossing her into the air, feeding her and taking care of her the way a doting grandfather should.

Macina, Charli Rose and I took the grand baby down to your parents house the other week. I’m embarrassed to say that it was the first time that have seen your folks since you left us. It was a hard visit, but a heart felt one and one that was long over due and I’m glad that we finally gathered our courage up and made the trip.

I always knew that your brothers all look so much alike, but it really took my breathe away when I saw your brother Dickie, I thought that I was going to lose it, but the girls gave me the strength that was needed to keep it all together. God I miss you terribly baby and I’m sorry that we took so long to go down and visit them, but know that we will make sure that we go down more often in the future.

 This is very difficult for me, the guilt trips are horrible and I’m hoping that I’m doing the right thing. I’m trying hard to keep it together, not for me but for our girls and for your memory Poet.

My Immortal

February 11, 2010 on 10:49 pm | In Memories, Music, Opinion | Comments Off on My Immortal

I remember the first time I heard this song, I instantly fell in love with it. Each time I heard it on the radio I would sing along, full of emotion with tears falling down my face. I just knew that I would be singing this song one day, living the song as well.

Poet after you passed from this earth I couldn’t listen to music, it just hurt too damn much, but numerous songs were burried deep down that just needed to be released. When I was ready to listen to music, much to my dismay I couldn’t remember the name of this song or any of the words to look it up on the computer. Here it is almost 1 1/2 years later and I finally heard the song on the radio. I couldn’t wait to get home and find the video on You Tube in order to listen to it over and over until I’d had my fill and I did just that. Charli heard me listening to it and asked what the name of the song was, telling me that she loved the song as well, isn’t that something baby. You’d be so proud of her, I hope you are watching over her and I, we miss you so much.

 

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream, I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream, I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
And though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all alone

When you cried, I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream, I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

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